I receive “suggestions” regularly that it is time for me to take my future into my own hands… to just stop waiting on God and make my “Happily Ever After” happen in and of my own strength. My mother calls me stubborn, and while most of the time that would be considered an insult, I am taking it as a compliment in this case. I am stubborn. I know my God is big enough to cause the future to unfold in His timing, not my own. I know that for now He has called me to be single, to serve Him in every aspect of my life and to seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness. I also know that suddenly that can change, but I don’t want that “suddenly” to happen because I have decided I am ready, I want it to happen because it is God’s timing. I don’t want to date for the sake of dating. I want to date with purpose. I want to watch my Heavenly Father do exceedingly and abundantly above all I could ever ask or imagine because He can. I want to trust that one day my love story will unfold, but currently I am embracing the love story between my Savior and I. I have found my Prince of Peace, Mighty God, Holy One, and He is enough. He knows the desires of my heart better than I do, and He will sustain my heart as I wait.
I appreciate that my friends want to “help me” find my love story. I know they mean well, they love me and I love them. But I am simply stubborn, I realize that this is the 21st century and maybe I am old fashioned but God has not called me to take things into my own hands. He has called me to trust Him…and I will.